Some days, I used to sit by the window to just gaze out... maybe some 10 minutes or maybe for hours together... and then I would realize as I regained senses that nothing had registered in me all along... that basically what I had been gazing at was something deep within me... inside .... maybe the person "I had always longed to be but could never"...
Slowly, I realized during all those periods of singled out existence that within me were many different people all of whom were new to me... and in fact really exciting to get to know...
There was a me who wanted to get to know all about forensic sciences.... a me who wanted to go into pure experimental physics... a me who wanted nothing other than designing and a me who wanted to just get out there into this world and do what I want and how I want and where I want and....
But there was this me who wanted to get out of this world and go places.... places like eternal Shangri - la , with eternal mysteries and time surrounding me... eternal peace... away from this "madder day by day" world... and with every single person I ever wanted to know... all packed away silently and deeply in my heart....
You get to meet a lot of people in this world... people who you like when you meet them, people who you like as you get to know them... sometimes people who u really like even without speaking to them.... just because you know that there is something special... whatever you do and however you try to break the bond....
But all of them aren't going to be what you really want them to be.... and then that is when you try to compromise... and sometimes completely let go......
Imagine a life tangled up.... with innumerable others whom you aren't even sure if u like enough to put up with.... and then imagine yourself free.... free enough to fly up up and away... into unchartered boundaries... and into undreamed realms....
With the dust of those stars in my eyes.... will continue further later.....
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